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Friday, January 25, 2013

The Mysterious Case of the Disappearing Blogger

Hey HEY hey everyone!  I’m still alive and I am sorry for not blogging more.  The best way for me to explain is to fill you in on what’s been going on since my last post.

I have never been so busy in all my life.  I thought it was hard to be a mom, work full time and go to school online.  But now I have added so much more.  I work closely with two historical societies helping with online marketing and membership.  I help spread the online networks of local small businesses every chance I get.  I still maintain my facebook group Topeka History Geeks,  I am deep into the Masters program now and it requires a lot more work than ever before.  And since October I have been asked to join the staff of the awesome Topeka based magazine seveneightfive.  So yeah, I’m busy pretty much all the time.   I like everything I am involved in, but sometimes I worry I have taken on too much.  There have been some instances where I have to choose between meeting a deadline and getting enough sleep.  But so far I have been able to manage it all.  I am working on finding a way to get things a bit more organized.  We shall see how that goes.

Sondra and I showing you that we are a force to be reckoned with

 Right now I am sitting in a hospital room in Stormont-Vail.  It’s not me who is hooked up to all those tubes and wires; it’s my Aunt Sondra.  You see her Lymphoma has returned for the third time.  At the moment she is resting soundly but the two weeks leading up to today has been a whirl wind of pain and agony for her.  Sondra is a fighter and her pain tolerance is the highest of anyone I have ever seen.  To see her brought to tears by the tumor resting on her spine is one of the most unsettling things to witness.  She maintains her high spirits and keeps on fighting.  I love this lady like a mother and she has to get better.  We all need her too much. 

So now diet.  I weighed myself at the beginning of the year, 255.  Can you believe I did that?  Last year I started at 265, got all the way down to 226.  Now here I am at just ten pounds below my starting weight.  What a freaking catastrophe I am.  And already I am failing.  I started the whole New Year’s resolution and made it one week before I failed again.  I think it is stress and depression that is motivating me to give in to my food desires.  I know I am better than this, but right now I lack the desire or the drive to improve.  I have to get back with it.

I am not going to be so bold as to promise you I am getting back on track, because obviously that isn’t working.  So now I have to figure out what works for me.  What will help me change my life for good?  As soon as I figure that out I will let you know my friends.   I will shout it from the mountain tops.
The suspense is killing me

4 comments:

  1. Sweetie, you LOST 10 lbs! That is fabulous! So are you,.

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  2. I'm determined to change...going to do a 180 Turnaround. Seriously. I 'll share more with you in person. But not before Chocolate Fantasy Topeka...

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  3. Hi Martie, it's so nice to see you back writing, I hope your aunt is okay. Also don't be too hard on yourself, you have a lot on your plate.

    I know how you feel about losing and gaining the weight... it is a constant battle but one I am not giving up on... I look forward to your future posts:)

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  4. Thank you Launna, you are very kind! We can all do this, giving up is the only way we can fail.

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